I dread the night.

The sound of the alarm
that wakes me up in the morning
The smell of the comforter
is that of your choosing
The aroma of coffee
brings a smile on my face,
the fall outside,
brings a peace from within
As the day progresses
into the cold rain I walk
the sound of my steps
Crush the dry leaves on the path..
My stride is happy
nothing to complain about..
The evening with the gang
is all I need for a mood lift
the chick flick in the night
with a good dinner and dessert
It seems like a perfectly normal day
One in which everything went my way
but in my bed when I lay
and think I am happy and try to be gay
but the thought is forceful and it hurts I say
There is something in the day
that was not as right
I cant point it out as such
but there was definitely something
pain, I cant say as much
but at the end of it, I feel alone
in the sea of people I stand only one
A bunch of friends who smile always
a shoulder to cry whenever I need one
And then , life goes on..
and it goes on and on
and then the alarm rings
and the morning so bright
welcomes me to the day
and I dread the night....

Playing with words

I know I am not good,
but I wanna keep trying,
for it is not to win or lose,
I just wanna keep playing

I do want to tell you

I do want to tell you,
but the words are now lost,
For I have completely forgotton,
the assumption I was trying to toss

Winning and Losing

I am tired of losing
Losing to time..
Losing to life..
and to life's every way..

It amazes me how
I can take failure
But to want to win,
is like torture.

It drives me crazy
that I understand and think
and I believe and I know
what I want when I wink.

I know what I want
I know the way to it
I know the pain
and I dont need it.

I want to be the
positive person I am
that there is nothing that
I really give a damn..

I cant live in the agony
In the sunset, I can find my karma
There has to be a new beginning
A new dawn to begin a new drama

That I think about every night
and I live in my everyday..
Its time for a new act
another lift of curtain in life's play.

It is time for Victory
release from agony,
it is time to win the battle
I fight every day

With myself I am at war
It is me who has to win
My emotions, complexes,
my weaknesses to overcome.

Today, tomorrow and forever
One day at a time
To find myself another quest
a race against the same time.